I wrote it, didn’t I?

I’ve had those moments when I’m driving and I’ve forgotten where I’m headed, I’ve gone to a room in my house and didn’t remember why. For me it’s my cluttered thoughts, but it’s so dang annoying.

I’m almost done with the rough draft of a book I’m writing. Some extra research produced more material. Looking at the last chapter on the computer today, I couldn’t understand why the newest information wasn’t in the chapter. I remembered writing it, didn’t I? In my head, I could visualize writing the info. Why wasn’t it there?

In a mild panic, I rifled through pages of writing. I’m old school and hand write before typing. It’s pleasing to feel my hand slide across the page as the words squirt out of the pen. I could not find the pages I’d written. Didn’t I write them?

My method of writing has always been to think about all of the information in my head. I may spend a few weeks organizing and “writing” stuff in my mind. I’ve never been one to jot down outlines or drafts. One challenge is to recall if I transferred the work in my head to the written page.

Though I could visualize writing it on paper, I believe I never wrote my ideas out. I found a few pages of notes taken from various newspaper articles. I will search once more tomorrow and then sit down to write if I can’t locate the pages. Because I wrote them out, didn’t I?

“I shuffle through my mind
To see if I can find
The words I left behind
Was it just a dream that happened long ago?
Oh well, never mind”. Who Wrote Holden Caulfield? Green Day

“Some are born to move the world
To live their fantasies
But most of us just dream about
The things we’d like to be”. Losing It. Rush